Are there some people who will never change?

This is a question I had to ask myself today- another left hook to the jaw- I feel like a prize fighter these past few weeks- If I had a camera implanted in my forehead- you would agree with me, but for now- you will just have to take me at my word.  It pushed me to my knees in my some what dark and messy room, next to my bed to pray; 
 Dear Lord- Please, Please- protect my children and my family here in this home, take my fears and problems that only you understand and remind me to lay them at your feet each morning.  You are the only one I trust to tell my hearts pain to and you are the only one who really "gets me".  Put a thorny hedge around my family and keep those who mean us harm away from us.  In Christ's name AMEN....
I know the next sentence will shock some of you- but that thorny hedge was meant for my  some of my extended family-  I really don't want them in my life- sound strange coming from a PROCLAIMED Christian?... its OK, you can say Yes... Again I say... we don't all have to agree-With ME-!!
It all comes back to boundary's again, or the lack of them on some peoples behalf.  I was so sad that today I would love to be focusing on the Christmas Holiday... the full purpose of what Christmas is all about and my mind is full of the JUNK that comes from my dysfunctional family that has plagued me my entire life.
Again- I ask GOD to take this from me- I want to enjoy the fullness of what Christmas is about- the ultimate gift, the only gift that I will ever need or want my entire life- the one if I had to do it all over again and only had one choice- I would choose-..... a relationship with my Savior- the Savior that was born on Christmas to die for me. The one that if He had only one choice to do it all over again....I know w/out a doubt would choose to be born and die for me-you-us... This I know with my whole heart- So as I rest tonight- I ask God to continue to lead me, correct my path if I am needing that as well- but to keep those who may not change and has no intention to change to keep them away from my family, my children, my home- and I wonder as I do each day- is there people who will never change? If I am sad over that- how much more is Jesus Christ over that thought??

Kris-incomplete-honest-undone: Birthdays,Blogs & Brain Block

Kris-incomplete-honest-undone: Birthdays,Blogs & Brain Block: "· The obstacles of past scars can be overcome by present truths. Your deliverance will not start in your cir..."

Birthdays,Blogs & Brain Block

·                                 The obstacles of past scars can be overcome by present truths. Your deliverance will not start in your circumstances; it will always evolve out of your mentality. Whenever someone tells you what you can’t do or be, or what you can’t get or attain, then tell them, “I can do ALL things through CHRIST who strengthens me! I am a transformer!”~T.D. Jakes

Birthdays & Blogs & Brain Block

So this weekend was my birthday, I actually don’t mind birthdays at all- but this one I actually enjoyed for a change.

I treated myself to a hair cut which does not come easy for the likes of me, my husband and kids stayed at home while I was gone and cleaned it really well and baked a cake for me… very thoughtful.  I had a wonderful dinner w/ my family and my cousin who came to visit me and my oldest son actually didn’t have to work and was with us as well for the eve.  I have to say receiving birthday cards from my 22 yr old was the highlight for me- sounds strange I am sure but he has been away at college for the last several yrs and his words meant more then I can ever say.  I have had so many subjects on my mind over the last 3 days or so to blog about I have now gone into “fuzzy” mode.  If I were to write about my entire weekend and all that is on my mind it would first confirm that I am defiantly ADD and secondly make you all wonder if I was on medication- which I will then answer yes- and you would say.. Well, its not working very well is it??!!

I guess my mind never turns off… then add a Sunday sermon to that brain of mine and well we have a party-people!

So as I just vent for the eve- as I think about the week ahead of me, homeschooling, kids scheds, church scheds, medications to pick up for me and my autistic children- household chores I may or may not get done this week, bills to pay- Ponder on commitments I must keep and some I will dread.  Letters I would love to write and phone calls I don’t want to make at all… I am thankful for another birthday… I think about my Aunt Judy who would have had her birthday on November 11 and would have been about 64- she passed away  23 yrs ago from cancer and left 3 small children behind ( my cousin Sandi-mentioned above was 7 yrs old)~ she would of given anything to have one more yr with the “to do” list above.  She was a wonderful mother- opposite from her only sister.  When I sd HONEST.. I meant it. I will try to honor her with my thoughts this week as well as God.  As the week continues my mind will spin into more things to write about.. and until then~

What I do today is important, because I am exchanging a day of my life for it

Only time will tell if it was time well spent.